S & R

Life just went a bit weird these days. I guess it was too much of mixed information being shed. God must have wanted me to know all these horrifying secrets and new revelations so that I could carry the burden with me to the grave. He must have handpicked me since I’m not much of a talker anyway (damn, I’ve already told someone :p) God must have wanted to shed some light on me so that I would think twice before taking any actions in the future. But I dun think it was just “some light”. More like HE used a beam light and shine it directly onto my face. And if you’re lucky, on certain nights, you’ll catch a batman signal reflecting on my face.

Secrets as in the true meaning of it, should be left as secrets. Coz now I’m horrified of the truth. Things that I’ve never imagine would happen to this family or my relatives, actually did happen. Things that I thought would never repeat itself again, repeated like a bad dream. Things that I can only dream of owning in the future suddenly is being presented to me now like the beautiful and irresistible land of Willy Wonka’s.

Yes, I wanna grab it all but God knows best. Mebbe he’s prepping me up for the heavy responsibilities I have to face. So never mind that our 1st two plans din fall thru. Nevermind that we lost sleep before seeing “IT” and after falling in love with “IT”. I still believe in the power of three. InsyaAllah the 3rd will be The One, the best and the most beautiful ever. But when it happens, that’ll be it. The life-changing experience.