Fate?

As I matured, I began to realise that nothing else matters more in the world than being happy. It's funny how at one point of my life, all I wanted was money. Lots and lots of money. You can't blame me, I was earning peanuts back then. But now, it seems money can no longer buy me happiness.

Happiness is very subjective. You can leave your job and be a full-time sahm and be contented and happy. You can do the most silliest of things in the world and still be contented and happy. I want that and I'm still searching for that. Now, things I thought I'm happy with, begin to prove otherwise. Sometimes I wonder if I'm living in denial. Or am I being ungrateful?

I'm sorry you have to hear me ramble like this (you could leave this blog you know..). I'm just feeling a bit melancholic on this surprisingly cold and wet day. A series of events suddenly popped out of nowhere and gave light to the future. I tried all my might, I tried avoiding it like plague. But it just keeps coming..