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Abt 12.30 pm just now, i was in my mom's bedroom while my grandma was sleeping in e master bedroom. Suddenly i heard this loud thud. I ran into my grandma's bedroom to find her lying on e floor. She must haf fallen from e bed while sleeping. She was unconscious. I shook her body & called out her name several times but no response & she was lying in a very awkward position. At 1 point, i seriously tot she was dead. But thank God she came ard abt 5 mins later. I was home alone & had to carry her up onto e bed. Her clothes was soiled wif crap & even e floor's covered wif shit. Got her changed & called my mom to get home ASAP. I was pacing up & down & had no idea wat to do. Had a rude shock & was totally lost. Then at abt 1.05pm, my stubborn grandma made her way to e bathroom herself & fell again. We discovered a patch of blood on her head & called e ambulance at once. I was really freaking out. OMG the last time, when she was somewat possessed & was shrieking & whinning like a ghost, i was also e only one at home. Now this... fuck ar, all my fault.. I'm feeling very guilty for not staying by her side when she fell. Coz b4 dat she was making a lot of noise & driving me nuts. I couldn't stand it & moved to e nx room. In fact, a few days ago my bro told me he dreamt dat he was embracing grandma. Somehow all of us felt, & also wif her present condition, dat she might not live long. haiz.. I'm still shaken after all e drama just now. Gonna take a rest. Laterz